I've come to realize that keeping up with day-to-day life and a blog has become a lot harder for me, but I'm trying to make the effort.
I wouldn't say I've hit a remission because I have not gone an entire week without symptoms, but I'm doing much better than I was this time last year. I'm trying very hard to stay positive with it all. Today was my first day that I went with pretty much ZERO symptoms! It was such an odd feeling to feel my old self. It was amazing, but there was a small part of me just waiting to be prepared for a wave to come through. I would have a balance issue here and there, but for the most part there was no rocking or swaying or bobbing. No pain in my ears, no pressure in my head. I have felt so good today and yesterday.
The last few weeks have been extremely stressful personally. We have had a lot going on with family issues that we have had to work through, but at this point, everything is out of our hands. I try to stay positive. When my view starts to turn negative, I start jamming out to music. Music has been my comfort for as long as I can remember, but lately it has been my go-to. I've jumped from up-beat pop, to rock, to hip-hop and even country. I've mixed up my playlist and its been awesome to find new music and old favorites.
I've decided that I am going to try to find some outdoor venues that are having free concerts in the area to go hear some bands live. I made it to a few last year and it was awesome.
Everyday, I'm pushing harder to become better. I have my set backs and I've learn to accept those. I know how hard I can push myself and when I need to just be okay with the way things are. Its all I can do. I have learned that this is the way things are and this is the way I am.
I'm feeling better about myself. Don't get me wrong, I still have my frustrating days, but who doesn't? And mine just come with a little wave riding. I just need to get back on my surfboard and ride along whichever way the waves take me!
